Why Do I Fear the Unknown?
A part of being a self-diagnosed control freak is the fear of the unknown a.k.a. everything
that I cannot control even if I tried my absolute hardest. The reality that I have no control over
what I do not know terrifies me. I believe in, love, and serve the Creator of the entire universe,
yet I still try to do things my own way. I keep trying to control what I have no business
controlling, and ending up with the same results expecting things to turn out differently the next
time. That is pretty darn close to the definition of insanity right…doing the same thing over and
over again expecting different results. There you have it I’m insane. However, the beauty of
God’s grace is that He’s got everything under control, and it’s up to me to rely on Him and His
strength not my own. I was reminded of that today in reading a couple of different passages of
Scripture. First, in Isaiah 40:28-31, I was reminded of God’s overwhelming strength, and that I
can find rest in Him, even when I get tired and weary from fighting to do things my way.
Secondly, in Psalm 23 I was reminded that God is always leading me, and as long as I am
following Him I have nothing to fear. God is not going to lead us into destruction. There might
be pain, sorrow, and troubles that we face, but if we are completely honest with ourselves we are
called to live a life like Christ did which includes all of the suffering He endured for the sake of
the Kingdom of God. Is it absolutely terrifying sometimes? YES, but we have a Great Shepherd
who is with us to the very end of time.
“The Lord is my shepherd;
I have all that I need.
He lets me rest in green meadows;
He leads me beside peaceful streams.
He renews my strength.
He guides me along right paths,
Bringing honor to His name.
Even when I walk through the darkest valley,
I will not be afraid,
For You are close beside me.
Your rod and Your staff
Protect and comfort me.
You prepare a feast for me
In the presence of my enemies.
You honor me by anointing my head with oil.
My cup overflows with blessings.
Surely Your goodness and unfailing love will pursue me all the days of my life,
And I will live in the house of the Lord forever.”